A Whole New World

I'm watching Aladdin and I'm loving it. I miss Disney movies and being a kid. I'm also ranting about stupid bitches that think they are irreplaceable. Bitch you're so not worth my time. FU. Second thing on my agenda, All men are douchers. For real. Third of all.....I think I still have feelings for you.

It's All Your Fault

If you could only see,
The way I look at you.
Beyond the staRe when you look at me,
What I long to do.
If you could only hEar,
WhAt I'm reaLLy saying,
When I saY nothing at alL.
The message that I convey,
Could be quIte breathtaKing.
If you could only feel,
What I fEel,
When I stand next to you.
The adrenaline, I'm afraid,
Could be a little captivating.
If you could only know,
WhY I'm the way I am,
When you're arOund,
The psychosis, yes the craziness,
Can be sort of intoxicating.
Still yoU say you see it all,
Hear it all,
Feel it all,
Know it all,
But you don't.
No you don't see how I really feel.
Things are not just what you see.
Life is still a mystery.

Unstoppable

There's an aching in your voice,
A sadness in your heart,
A conflict in the choice,
And you're off to a bit of a rough start.
Still I yearn to heal your pain,
To ease your sorrow,
To be the break in the rain,
Another day, a new tomorrow.
We'll live each day like it's our last.
Find hope and build some dreams.
Leave old bridges in the past.
Meand old broken seams.
Find peace and follow it with love.
Make our mark, plant a few seeds,
Ask for help from up above,
Fulfill desires, wants, and needs.
Let nothing stand in our way,
Tomorrow will be too late,
Because today is our last day.

Insomnia

So I've been on vacation for the past four days. I was only supposed to stay for three days, but something happened last night that made that impossible. I've had a really good time. It's been great to catch up on things with Grey since it feels like we haven't seen each other in forever. We have made some new memories. He took me to my first club, which surprisingly was more fun than I thought it would be. I'm not really into that whole scene. I can go to them, I just am not one of those people that are extremely outgoing and just don't give a fuck. I'm like a horrible dancer, but he really wanted to go and it really did end up being fun. That is until we began to walk back to the car. See I had borrowed my friend's car to come down to Allentown to visit Grey. So I was being extremely careful. However, when we walked back to the car from the club, everything seemed normal. There was a cop sitting around the corner from where we parked so everything seemed safe. Only when we got back to the car, we discovered that the driver's side window had been busted out and my gps system and ipod had been stolen. I was fucking pissed. I was actually having a breakdown as we drove back to the house. I had no idea what the hell I was going to say to my friend. However, she took it a lot better than I thought she would. We ended up spending the entire day today finding a new window for her car. We ended up getting it installed and everything went well. But seriously, this is how every vacation I ever take ends up. FML

2 Days

So I have two more days and then I get to see my favoritest person in the whole wide world....YAY

There's Only Us, There's Only This. Forget Regret or Life is Your's To Miss

Lately I've been dreaming,
That you will come around.
That the thickness in the air,
And the stillness of the night,
Will catch your troubled head,
And show you wrong from right.
Lately I've been losing myself,
Inside the colors on the wall.
Straining just to hear a sound,
Other than the beat of my own heart.
And the silence after a missed call.
Lately I've been wanting,
To show you that I care.
To be your bar of steel,
To share the secrets that you bare.
But at the end of the day,
You're still a million miles away.
And I'm the one begging you to reconsider,
You're own fate.
To choose me,
Instead of them.
To give in to what you want.
What you long for.
Because I'm just a girl,
Standing in front of a boy,
Asking him,
To love her.